Hearts

Our hearts can be very willful
cant be taught who to love
but so naive
to life's realities

It can be so cold and ruthless
when it says no
but easily melts our defenses
when we say yes

Our hearts can be very resilient
can endure so much pain
but in time
it withers and dies in vain...

Cocaine

You are like cocaine...
bad for me
and yet I crave for you
I'm incomplete without you

you are like cocaine...
making my heart beat faster
giving a feeling of extreme euphoria
and a lack of hunger

In time, I know you will ruin me
and make me sick
fill my head with hallucinations
destroy every bit of my being

But how will I put an end to this
how could I stop
when I can't imagine life
without this maddening addiction...

without you...

One great love...

They say that everybody has their one great love. It’s either you’ve met him/her already or he’s still out there. But how will we recognize our one great love?

One great love is described as a love whose intensity is so great that even the passing of time couldn’t dampen the spark which was first felt when you first met. Meaning all the emotions or feelings is still the same even after years have passed. It is with this one person that we can never forget the sweetness of its kiss, the warmth of its hug and that euphoric feeling in our hearts. Even the slightest thought of not being with him, of not spending the rest of your life with that person is already heart breaking… I guess because we know that we will never fall in love like this again…

True Love entails enduring commitment, maturity and constant communication. True love endures in silence and is never self centered. But our one great love, transcends true love. It is timeless and boundless. Not even time nor distance could stand on its way. It’s like the whole world conspires for your one great love.

So I guess, a person can really only have one great love on any given lifetime. This feeling can be ecstatic but can also be heart breaking… because often times, our great love doesn’t necessarily feel the same way towards us… and it doesn’t necessarily mean that you’ll end up with each other. If that’s the case, is it then worth it to continue loving that person even if the feeling is unreturned? I guess people who get to spend the rest of their lives with their one great love are extremely lucky.

How long then should we hold on and wait for our great love? Is something this great be truly out there?



September 14, 2008
6:30 a.m.

Endless...

Endless nights
I cry myself to sleep
Endless days
I walk in a daze…

Endless tears
Shed over you
Countless shards of glass
Pierced in my heart

When will all these end?
How will I put a stop to this?
When all’s inside my heart
Is endless love for you…

Will there ever be an end?

All my love
I showered on you
Gave you not only my heart
But every essence of my soul…

But you’ve hurt me
Countless times
Emotionally and physically
And I just kept it all inside

I kept quiet and just closed my eyes
Hoping for my love to be enough for us
I convinced myself that I’m happy
That everything’s ok

But it’s not… I deserve real happiness
I deserve to be loved
And cared for
I deserve more than this…

strictly friends...

We are strictly friends…
But my heart skips a beat
Whenever I see your sweet face
Your piercing eyes…

We are strictly friends…
But I long to hear your voice,
Your infectious laughter
Makes my defenses crumble…

We are strictly friends…
But I think about you
The moment I wake up
And before I sleep…

Strictly friends…
A phrase which I keep on reminding myself
To wake me from this insanity,
Reminding me of life’s realities
And love’s cruelty…

Borrowed time

I can’t tell you to stay
I have no right
For all I have
Is just borrowed time…

You are not mine
And someday, you’ll be hers again,
I guess you always have been…
Ours, is just borrowed time

And I dread for that day to come
The day that I’ll lose you again
So let me savor every moment
Of this borrowed time…

Maybe

You just don’t know
How hard I tried
To win your heart
And be part of your life

I guess we are all entitled
To be crazy one time or another
To lose all reasoning
And caution to the wind

But, I guess the day
That you’ll love me
The same way I love you
Will never come…

I asked you … but
You can’t even tell me
Yes… no… or maybe…
“Maybe” would have been enough for me…

So, I know someday this has to end
All these madness must one day cease
Coz “Maybe”
would have been enough...