Love lost

I used to be in love… I used to close my eyes to all his shortcomings and dream that I’m in love and this love would be able to conquer everything. I used to believe in forever. That nothing can ever stand in our way. But as the years passed, as I aged and my heart got wiser, I woke up to one day not feeling the same anymore.

You see, I’ve loved him everyday of my life, gave him everything. Tried to understand him and be with him. But he took everything for granted. He was too busy with his friends and vices that he didn’t even notice that I don’t look for him anymore when he comes home late, or that I don’t anymore yearn for his embrace and kisses. He did'nt even notice that my eyes does'nt sparkle the way it used to.We don’t anymore talk and share each other’s dreams. I just sleep, close my eyes and dream of the love that we used to share.

This is the most painful and saddest thing to happen to any couple… to fall out of love.
I read that there’s no such thing as love lost because if you really are in love with that person then your love for that person can never really be lost but only buried. God knows how everyday I try to unearth those buried feelings but my heart is half empty… How can it give love when it’s almost empty? How could I hold on when I could barely hang on to my sanity? How could I start to mend my wounds when the scars are too deep to heal?

The heart doesnt die easily, it is strong and could face life's tragedies. It can withstand all the trials except for one... when the heart is neglected for so long... then it dies from blindness and betrayals. It gets worn out and withers... and it dies a natural death.