inner stillness...

First blush of awareness
So vast and immense
A profound driving force
A relative truth to what I am

So subtle and yet so intense
Gone by days torments me
Leaving one’s embrace of reality
As these voices thrives on my pain

Glimpses of the past
Distant thoughts of the future
Offers brief moments
of bliss...

Taken all in mental quietude,
Yielding to one’s emotions
Be still my heart…
Be still…

Candice Sandiego
March 27, 2009
5:05 a.m.

Peace

Serenity escapes my grasp
As dawn slowly appears in the horizon
Half awake yet half asleep
Treading the betweens of my existence

Regret haunts me
Tossing and turning in bed
Memories of us continues to plague
Oh peace, how obscure …

As I close my eyes
And rest my weary soul
I surrender to the night
And claim my elusive sleep…


Candice Sandiego
March 19, 2009

Life

Life is full of regrets
But the saddest regret
Is when you lose the one person
Who truly loved you

Life is full of sorrows
But life’s greatest sorrow
Is to never have experienced
The true meaning of love

Life is full of injustices
But the greatest injustice in life
Is when your heart is no longer free
And love can never be yours

Life is full of mellow dramas
But the most tragic mellow drama in life
Is a life lived well and yet realizing in the end
That it is empty…


Candice Sandiego
March 19, 2009

Shining Star's Rummage Sale

In these hard and trying times, my friends and I thought of ways wherein we could raise funds while de-cluttering our homes… we then decided on having a rummage sale. For as they say, one man’s trash could be another man’s treasure. We sold our old clothes, bags, shoes, books, magazines and dvd’s. Instead of these items just gathering dust in our homes, we turned it into a goldmine. And it was a success… the only drawback was the weather. It rained towards the late afternoon so we had to close shop early. It was our first venture and took note of a lot of areas which we could improve for next time. Yes, there is a next time and you better watch out for it. The rummage was held last Sunday and as these pictures show, we had a blast.

Lost

Lost in a maze of oxymorons
Of half truths and half lies
Tangled in a web of dreams
Or nightmare of life’s cruelties

A phantasm of past love
Remnants of the illusion of ecstasy
Days crept by walked in a trance
Oblivious to humanity

Stumbling aimlessly in a world of deceit
Destitute of real love
Mournfully counting the days
As black crows hovers in the dusk

Shiver runs through the cold depths
Of my tattered soul
Robbed of its passion for life
Mangled beyond any recognition…


Candice Sandiego
March 13, 2009

Araw ng Dabaw

Waterfront Airport Hotel in Mactan, Cebu joins Davao in celebrating Davao City's annual biggest event, Araw ng Dabaw, with a special Food Festival at their Cafe Uno. The buffet highlights the culinary specialties of Davao City like Sinugbang Panga, asadong alimasag, sinampalukang manok, and mouthwatering durian-flavored ice cream, pastillas and pie. This will run till March 21, 2009.

Davao City is known as the melting pot of diverse cultures but what is really reminiscent to Davao is its mouth watering Durian fruit. Durian is known as the "King of Fruits". Some people say it smells like hell... but for me it's so aromatic that the minute I smell a hint of Durian, I just cant help but get my hands on it. The pulp itself taste just like heaven... yes, just like heaven... Yummy!!

Exigence

Sometimes I wonder
Do you love me
Because you need me
Or do you need me
Because you love me?

You’ve told me a thousand times
That it’s the latter
But why do I always feel
That it’s the other way around?

Did you look for me
Because you couldn’t live without me
Or because life is just so hard
Without me?

Tell me what is it really?
Is this worth it?
Is this really love?
or is this just a case of neediness?

A day with ex-President Joseph estrada

Philippine Ex-President Joseph Ejercito Estrada was here in Cebu last week to have a symposium with the students and academe of Southwestern University. And since we were there to cover the event, I grabbed the opportunity to have a photo op with him.

Skywalk extreme

The Crown Regency Hotel here in Cebu offers the first Sky experience adventure with the world's first Edge coaster which is a coaster that goes around the edge of the 38th floor of the hotel and tilts its riders up to 55 degrees! Another adventure which they offer is the country's first Skywalk Extreme where we get to walk at the outer rim of the 37th floor of the hotel. I, along with the whole marketing group at SunStar conquered our fear of heights and tried the Skywalk adventure. I think its less scarier than the edge coaster but still a nerve racking experience but it was so fun and exhilarating and should I say liberating too!! I guess the only part I hated was the way the attire and harness that we needed to put on made me look bigger than I already am!! Hahahahaha..... anyway, we can't have it all huh...

QUICKSAND

I RUN
BUT IT KEEPS PULLING ME
I TRY TO GET OUT
BUT IM ASPHYXIATED
LEAVING ME BREATHLESS
DEFENSELESS
I CANT GET OUT
WITH EACH STEP I TAKE
I AM PULLED BACK
LOGIC TELLS ME TO BOLT
ESCAPE FROM THE HYSTERIA
BUT MY HEART DRAWS ME
TEMPTS ME TO PLUNGE
INTO YOUR QUICKSAND...


Candice Sandiego-March 7, 2009

new photos... new me...

Well here are my new pictures... I already loss 54lbs but I still need to lose another 50lbs this year. I need to go a little bit slowly though coz my doctors said that the weight loss is just too abrupt that I'm losing my hair!! Hahahaha...

Anyway, I have to always be on tract but at the same time have a healthier diet...

Thats all for now.... until the next update...

Awakening

Gone are the dark clouds
That blocked my path
Gone are the mellow dramas
That once ruled my days

For when I close my eyes
I no longer see him
What remains is just the sting
Fragments of a broken dream

Melancholic smile forever gone
An awakening has dawned
The birth of a new day
Has finally come

Rain

I keep on telling myself
Today, it won’t rain
Today, the raindrops will stop
And the soil will finally dry up

But… today like any other day
The raindrops still fell…
Great flood still came
Dark clouds still covered the sun

But lose hope I will not
I know the day will come
For the sun to shine, for the rain to stop
and lush greens surrounds me...

Leaving yesterday behind by Keno

Since you left me, I never really tried
To put my life to where it should belong
And I've always let the past gone by
I'm realizing that it could be wrong

Refrain:
But now I fin'lly knew
I had to let it go
To make way for a brighter tomorrow

Chorus:
So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before

Since I know that I never will forget
The memories that made my yesterday
I will try not to let it interfere
The choices I will make along the way

Refrain:
'Cause I'm not livin' in a world of fantasy
I'm here now in the world of reality

Chorus:
So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
Just the way I did before

Thank You...

Thank you for leaving me
For I never could have left you on my own
Thank you for waking me
From the deep slumber of my hallucinations

Thank you for being a man
For I am just a woman
Ruled by my lunatic emotions
And weakened convictions

Thank you for showing me
That not all great loves are meant to be
And my soulmate you are not
For your faith in us were too frail

What he destroyed in years
took you only months
like a strong and fiery storm
destroying everything on its path

Thank you for making me feel pure bliss,
When you loved me
And the agony of a broken heart
That torments me now endlessly…

Thank you for making me face reality
of how insane I was
for believing you are capable of love
and not just selfish love...

How your sweet words
fleeted me to high heavens
but your actions... or lack of it
opened my blind eyes

I guess I Thank you for breaking me
For now the healing can begin
Strenghtened by the stormy weathers
Of what this all has been

Thank you…